Milspouse Friday Fill-In!

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1.Are you a different person than you were five years ago? 
Five years ago, I was still in high school.  My life has changed a lot since then.  After high school I began working, went to college for a while, moved into my own place with Chris, bought a brand new car, got engaged, got married, and now our newest chapter: Army Life. As a person I have changed. 5 years ago if you asked me if I wanted kids I would have told you no. Now I want a child more than anything. I have matured, grown emotionally, and really discovered who I am.

2.If you could go on Amazing Race, who would you take with you as your partner and why? 
It would have to be my husband. We balance each other perfectly. My areas of weakness are his strengths...and vice versa.

3.Does Facebook or Twitter actually bring more stress or good in to your life? 
I have a twitter account but I rarely get on it anymore. Facebook I love for many reasons, but sometime when I have friends that post ridiculously stupid things, or anything drama related, I really have to work hard to just ignore it. I think Facebook is great because there are a lot of people that I genuinely care about, and I am thankful to have that connection with them.

4.June is National Soul Food Month- what’s your soul food? 
My idea of a plate full of soul food is Fried Catfish, Fried Okra, and Mac and Cheese. YUM.

5.If you could live in any other era than the current, which one would it be & why? 
I love the history of the medieval era and the big dresses and jousting and all that fun stuff. Chris and I love going to the Renaissance Festival here in Texas, and we make it a point to try to make it there at least once every year.

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Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday 

to the best husband 

in the world!!!

It's Time

Well, I guess it is finally time to write this post. 

I have been home from my trip to SC for several days now, but

can only now find the strength to write this post.

I just typed out an entire play by play of my trip to SC, sharing every emotion and detail...

Then I deleted it. I've decided that I don't need to share every single detail. That could take hours. All you need to know is that:

My trip to SC was something I will never forget. 

SC was beautiful and, in my honest opinion, not as hot as everyone said. Maybe it's because I live in south Texas, and the weather is comparable.

The 16 hours that I got to spend with Chris over the 2 days I was there were simply put, AMAZING.

Reuniting with him on family day, embracing for the first time...and watching proudly as he made the final Pass In Review on graduation day, were 2 of the happiest moments of my life. (Second of course to my wedding day.)

The 2 days with him went by WAY too fast. Saying goodbye to him for the second time and sending him away to AIT was even harder than sending him to basic. I didn't want to let him go. I felt like we didn't get enough time together. 16 hours together was just not enough.

Chris is at AIT now and I miss him more now than ever. I thought him having access to his cell phone and his laptop would make things easier, but it actually makes things harder. It's like he is close and yet still so far. I miss my best friend, my confidant, my husband. He is the only person in my life that has never hurt me or let me down. I can't wait to see him again.

His AIT is 18 weeks and to me, it feels like forever. We are anxiously awaiting to see when he will gain off post privileges so that I can make the trip to see him. I have been wrestling with the idea of moving  to his AIT location to be close to him but honestly I am not sure it would be a wise decision. First, the Army will not pay to move me, so all costs would be out of pocket. Secondly, while 18 weeks may seem like forever, it really is not that long. Finding an affordable, pet friendly apartment that will give me a 4.5 month lease will probably be harder than it sounds. Third, as hard as it may be I am going to need these 4.5 months to wrap up our life here in Texas to prepare for our first PCS.

I had my first taste of civilian ignorance yesterday while visiting with family. I was visibly sad and someone asked me what was wrong. I mentioned that I am simply missing Chris and that it is hard being apart. Some days are harder than others. That person then answered back, "Well, you signed up for this life."

REALLY? 

Yes, we signed up for this life. Yes, I knew the separations would be really hard. NO, I never thought it would be easy, and YES, I still am happy with the decision that we made.

Does that automatically mean that I am not entitled to be sad or miss my husband when we are apart?

How insensitive.

It takes a strong man and woman to do this. I have come to the conclusion that no people outside of the military life will ever understand what our life is like until they walk a mile in our shoes.

No matter how hard things get, I love my husband more than anyone could imagine, and I will stand by him through anything.

If you made it through my whole post, thank you.

Until next time,